So based on my traffic and the searches used to find my blog lately… I gather I upset rather more people than anticipated by my abrupt plurk departure combined with over-dramatic blog post the other night.
I feel terrible about it. I am a fairly contained person, typically. Compartmentalized, private. It was wrong of me, wrong FOR me, to take to my blog in a fit of emo angst, and in doing so I hurt not only myself but others who are very dear to me.
I humbly apologize and beg forgiveness for that. I am also sorry to anyone who was worried about me doing something drastic and permanent. Fear not, it will never happen.
What I have been considering pretty seriously is quitting SL. It’s something I’ve blogged about before, something I’ve considered to various degrees before. I’ve been weighing the pros and cons, and while I am pretty sure I don’t want to quit, I do think I need to re-evaluate the time I spend here, and what I want from this virtual world. I still enjoy the fashion and the blogging – I think that should be my primary focus from now on if I decide to stay.
Disabling my plurk was hard – I freely admit addiction to it, and my addiction to it feeds my lesser, more easily conquered addiction to SL. I still open the plurk page when I get up in the morning or any time I sit down at my computer, and I get sad when the “this user does not exist” page pops up. I think I’m going to leave it turned off for one full week. On Thursday I will re-evaluate it, decide if I want to resurrect it or not. I’m definitely an “achiever” type, not having reached 100 karma is pretty annoying to me. =P
I’m doing very well on the IRL front. My new job is a dream, I’ve been doing a lot of socializing and considering some big decisions about my future living arrangements. All in all, I feel much better about my IRL now, which makes my ISL seem a little less bleak. =P
I’m wearing some of my favorite things in SL in this picture. Getting back to the basics – an outfit you might see me in while I’m hanging with my friends or doing FLF. My 2REAL Pure sneakers, Gonzo Jeans from Fishy Strawberry (look at that smexy butt!), Raspberry Fluff layered sweater from Pig, and the Elly Beta from Pink Fuel. Also note amazing new hair from Truth (The back of it is so flowy and lovely). Poses are from Estetica. =)